simply me

obračun

Sun, 20 Dec 2009 08:44:54 GMT

OK, pa dejmo na hitro potegnit črto pod 2009 ...

pod divji divji januar, ko sem si dokazala, da lahko živim ko najhujša žurerka ...
pod bolj umirjeni februar, ko sem ugotovila, da sem lahko srečna tudi sama ...
pod post-rojstnodnevni marec, ko ste mi "moje" punce dokazale, da ste res res in še vedno moje ...
pod velikonočni april, ko sem začela razumeti, da z Juretom nimava (in kdo ve, če sva kdaj imela) res ničesar skupnega ...
pod po dolgem času morski maj, ko smo se z enim kompletom punc odpravile na topli, sončni, sproščeni Rab ...
pod hektični, vstani-ob-šestih-zjutraj-delaj-do-treh-zjutraj junij, ko smo se z drugim setom punc odpravile na prelepi Cres ...
pod topli, poletni julij, ki mi je na pot pripeljal Gregorja ...
pod morski, dalmatinski avgust, ko sem doživela dokončno razsvetljenje ob sliki Jureta in Branke ...
pod delovni, glasbenomladinski, jesenskoserenadni september, ko sem ugotovila, da imam GM še vedno rada, a da je vedno bolj naporno delati in v Ljubljani in na Jesenicah ...
pod čudoviti, jesenski oktober, ko mi je končno postalo jasno, da mi Gregor pomeni veliko več, kot sem sprva mislila ...
pod zaljubljeni, ekstatični november, ki je minil tako hitro in ko so bili delovni dnevi zgolj zato, da sem se lahko veselila ur z Gregorjem ob koncih tedna ...
pod praznični december, ko se mi je 14 dni brez Gregorja vleklo kot cela večnost in ko sem spoznala, da je vse, kar čutim, resnično, in si dovolila biti srečna.

Ja, kar lepo leto je bilo. :) Naj 2010 pomete še, kar je ostalo slabega, vse nadomesti z dobrim, "zašpili" odprte konce naših nedokončanih projektov in začne nove, lepe in ambiciozne.

VESELE PRAZNIKE VSEM :*

sej vem sej vem

Wed, 09 Dec 2009 09:26:09 GMT

Sej vem, da se obdobja v življenju menjajo. In ko se eno obdobje konča, se drugo začne. In da je to dobr. In da je sprememba dobra. Vse to vem, dobr vem.

Sam sem še zmer mal žalostna.

no words

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 15:38:26 GMT

there is no way to describe this. it's like being on a permanent high.
*wooo...hoooooooo* :)))))
i am probably the luckiest girl in the world :)

všeč mi je ...

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 21:44:56 GMT

všeč mi je.

včas bi se histerično smejala.

včas se pa sam zadovoljno nasmehnem.

Všeč mi je, fizično, in psihično, in z vsemi ... geeky značilnostmi, in z vsemi ... čudaštvi.

I. LIKE. HIM. SO. MUCH.

<3

in prvič v življenju - mi je čist vseen, kaj si drugi misljo.

MOJ.

baby i can feel your halo :)

Mon, 26 Oct 2009 22:12:03 GMT

yeah yeah, same old same old.
i like someone :P
he likes me back :)

but he's funny. :D
and ... so smart.
and ... so eloquent.

and just lovely :)

and a bit of a geek :)
not AT ALL cool ;)

but i love every second i spend with him :)

it took me almost a year but

Tue, 18 Aug 2009 21:53:39 GMT

it seems i'm finally finally over jure. His cousin's boyfriend added me on FB (am so glad about it - i'd always wanted to email them and then didn't because i thought it would be weird) and among his pics is one of jure and branka. I looked at it - i made myself do it, and nothing. Didn't feel a thing. It was sort of like an out-of-body experience; seeing my first serious boyfriend, my first lover, the man i thought was going to be my husband, with someone else. She's not particularly pretty - but he looks more man next to her than he ever did next to me, and i suppose that counts for something. He's wearing a really ugly puma shirt (horrible, his style is so off it actually hurts) - but if they're happy, then good for them. I'm happy too, most of the time, when i don't have to worry about money and other stuff that real life brings, and sometimes whether i'll meet anyone else - but mostly i'm happy with my life; with my choices - and the freedom enabling me to actually have choices. I'm happy i went to Šolta - and paid for everything with my money - and happy i came back to Tacen, to a flat i'm paying for. And happy i could then go with my car to citypark and go shopping, just because.
So life is not bad. It's not what i expected, or planned, but it's not bad. And the feeling i have when i wake up every day is not one of despair - but rather one of expectation. And that is something i'd been missing when jure and i were still together.
So - jurč, you have a good life. I wish you all the best, and - no regrets; for neither of us.

Me, i'll be fine. I'll be just fine. :)

ti :)

Fri, 10 Jul 2009 09:08:32 GMT

Moj dragi ti. Sedim v pisarni in mislim nate. Mislim nate daleč stran od Ljubljane, kako se pripravljaš za izpit, ali pa morda za nastop, kako premišljuješ o notah in partiturah, in morda malo tudi o meni, in o prejšnjem tednu. Prebiram časopise, in premišljujem, katere teme bi pripravili za danes, in čakam na tvoj sms, in si mislim, tako kot si rekel, this is crazy.
In mogoče iz vsega skupaj nič ne bo, mogoče pa. In morda odhajam tudi jaz stran od Ljubljane, iz Slovenije, drugam, v moje drugo življenje. A že trenutno bo kar v redu, tudi zato, ker si ti nekje, pa čeprav tri prestopanja na letališčih stran.

What a difference a year makes :) Dar acum stiu - te esti .... in mine :)

in če sem vse to že imela

Wed, 17 Jun 2009 12:45:55 GMT

http://eirene.blog.siol.net/2009/06/10/neznosna-lahkost-bivanja/

in kaj potem?

kul

Sun, 29 Mar 2009 18:53:15 GMT

matr mi je fajn :) res. Sej vem, da mi en kup fali.

Sam mi je fajn. :)

eh

Sun, 22 Mar 2009 19:31:12 GMT

Skratka.
Dans sem šla dam, itak, da napol mrtva (as i still am). In se pogovarjava tko z mami, tralala, čist normaln, in pol pokliče sestrična in pol tko sam slišm mami "ja ne nč ni boljš, ja, lohk je slepota, sem mislla, da bo boljš, mal sem sesuta"

OK. HOLD IT. WHAT?

No, in pol pride nazaj v kuhinjo in jo vprašam, kaj je z njenimi očmi in mi pove. Mislm, vedla sem že, da so ji izmeril povišan pritisk v očeh, k je bla nazadnje, in so ji dal ene kapljice za oči, zdej v petek je bla pa spet pr okulistu in se je sicer mal znižal pritisk, sam da je še zmer nad normalno vrednostjo in da je to zelena mrena (glavkom), čigar zadnja in neizogibna posledica je slepota.
WTF?!
Tko da je zdej čist obupana. Jst pa tud. Man no :( Also - i feel SO bad about all the bitchin' i've done lately :(

Čeprov sem šla pol gledat mal na net. Zvišan pritisk je samo en od faktorjev. Pa jst bi šla še po drugo mnenje. Pa k oftalmologu. Tko da - it might be ok. Držte pesti, punce. Jst res ne vem, kaj bi, če se mami kej zgodi, kljub njenim takim in drugačnim popadkom.

ego pumpe in fuk blazince

Sun, 15 Mar 2009 14:12:33 GMT

No, pa dejmo enkrat tole v slovenščin spisat :) Predvsem zato, ker mam eno novo teorijo (ahah) in se mi ne da vsega v ang pisat. Torej. V petek smo šle z Majo in Evo gledat He's Just Not That into You (you gotta love the translation - Mu pač ni do tebe xD), smo pa že pred tem razvile eno teorijo, k sm jo jst pol še mal nadgradila. Itak da je sicer povod Mitja, k se res dobesedno dela norca iz mene, yanking me around. Kakorkoli, the point je, da me je v četrtek poklical ob 11h ZVEČER, češ da je bil ravn v črnučah, pa si je rekel, če bi še do mene mal šel (ponavljam - ob 11h ZVEČER). No, in jst to povem maji, k je že skor spala, in ona takoj skoči k (edinemu logičnemu?) zaključku, da je to booty call.

No, pa ni bil. Bil je pr men, V MOJI SOBI, do 1h ponoč. Kaj sva počela? Pogovarjala sva se. No, that's just never going to happen, right?

Skratka, ko sem v petek to razlagala Maji in Evi, se je razlaga ponudla pač sama od sebe. Jst sem njegova ego pumpa. Ko rabi nekoga, da se počut boljš, da ga mal hval, da se počut zaželjenga, takrat gre k dobri stari neškodljivi jerneji.
No pa sej - who could blame him? Sej vsi to počnemo, ane? Vsi mamo, če jo mamo le lahko, eno ego pumpo. Enga, ki ga skoz tko mal držimo na razdalji, mu damo vedet, tko, kdaj pa kdaj, da nekej bo, on nas pa medtem hval, se slin za nami itd. Hell, jst to počnem ves čas!! In tud vemo, kako vzdrževat take ego pumpe. Kakšen lupček sem pa tja, en hiter objem, poseben nasmeh.... pa je naša ego pumpa spet vsa mehka in prpravljena nas nadaljnje tolk in tolk časa hvalt.

No, seveda, ego pumpa ostane za zmer ego pumpa. To ne more prerast v zvezo al pa karkol podobnga, no way. Edina stvar, v ktero se lahko razvija ego pumpa, je fuk blazinca. Fuk blazinca je ego pumpa, s ktero se dol daješ, kadar se ravn nimaš z nobenim drugim dol za dajat. In seveda je ego pumpa total hvaležna, da je lahko tvoja fuk blazinca, in nima nč proti, in so vsi srečn.

Razen, kadar se ego pumpa spunta. Kadar se ego pumpa zave, da je ego pumpa. In noče bit več ego pumpa. Takrat je treba znat zbrat tiste par gramov dostojanstva, kolkr ga je še ostal, se pretvarjat, da tralala, to ni blo nič, nobenmu nisem bla ego pumpa, in it naprej. Pa zbrisat kakšno telefonsko al pa dve.

If you get my drift.

all we can do ...

Thu, 12 Feb 2009 08:11:16 GMT

... is just sit and wait.

Or, rather, all I can do is just sit and wait. That's ... new O_O :)

But on to more important stuff :) Yesterday i had my car serviced. Which is no biggie, i know, but for me it was huge - see, i've never done it before! On my own! :D So it was yet another accomplishment. You know? :)

Every day i get to do something new that really empowers me. It's so great. And not scary anymore. And i don't feel a burning urge to run and tell jure about it every time something like this happens. I have me now ;)

I'll be just. fine. Whatever happens. I'll be just fine :)

Now - back to work. There are people who rely on me ;)

question

Sat, 17 Jan 2009 08:50:56 GMT

So, in the light of everything that's been going on with LJ - should i archive my posts? And, uhm...how do i do that? O_O

new year's resolution

Thu, 25 Dec 2008 01:07:21 GMT

an early one. and only one.

enough. no more.

this is enough.

you don't have to know what i mean, but i think you do anyway.

merry christmas

Wed, 24 Dec 2008 16:58:24 GMT

my dear gals, have yourselves a merry little christmas :)

I just want to thank you all for all the support you've been giving me steadily this year. I love you and am grateful for you at the same time *hugs* I hope I won't have to do the same for you because I don't want anything bad happening to you, but if it does, you can always, under all circumstances, count on me.

Thanks again, you're the best! <3 <3 <3

update - other than dating ;)

Mon, 15 Dec 2008 18:49:43 GMT

ok, so lately i've been talking about dating only and i guess you've heard enough about that and i'm sure you'd all rather read about other stuff, like job flat car kittycats etc :) So the flat is almost done (really, it looks so nice and cosy - i love it). It survived the party on saturday (15 and more people can easily fit in there, AND sit as well, and not on each other ;) ) Anyway, i think most of the furniture is where it should be and we won't have to buy any more, just some pics on the walls and some more flowers and we're done. I also like the way maja and i get along (well, there are some glitches, but they're bound to be, we have no illusions about that), and the way we've settled the money matters and food and stuff. Basically, we split everything in half (so no stuff like - this shelf in the fridge is mine, and this is mine, because that's just ... too complicated and fussy).
The cats have settled in fine as well. They were really shocked on friday when i brought them (two or three weeks ago), but by sunday they were two happy campers, they're amazing :) They were the centre of attention on saturday (though, i must say, most remarks were something with "fat" >_>).
Anyway. I feel really good in this flat, and especially now with TV and internet, and both of us living there and settling in our normal routine.

I think I've also decided i'm going to spend this new year's at stash - there's going to be a party, and i think that's what i need, a good party with some people i know and even more of those i don't know ;) plus, it'll give me some quality time with stash (because we see each other so rarely nowadays :S)

So yeah. I'm living. And i'm trying to have as few regrets as possible. Most of the time i'm good at it :P

sadie tells it best

Tue, 09 Dec 2008 10:19:41 GMT

Evo, direkten citat z bloga Sadie, ki je pravi poet in jo občudujoče berem že nekej časa. Pa zmer ve, kaj napisat oz. zmer napiše tist, kar rabm prebrat, ob pravem času. Ne vem, kakšna povezava je to :)

"Je bilo malo bizarno, je manjkalo nekaj malega, ampak bilo veliko ostalega. Pa tud če nisem v celoti govorila resnice, ne takoj, pa tud če je v resnici vse tisto bila resnica, samo malo bolj pozna, se spomnim, nikoli ne bom pozabila, si rekel - mene vse to nič ne moti. Jst te vzamem celo in vso, z vso čustveno prtljago, s težkim tovorom na upognjenem hrbtu, jst te hočem, da te ozdravim, da te zacelim, da nesem pol te zajebane prtljage zate, dokler ne pozabiš, dokler ne zaživiš spet, z mano, drugače, na novo. In sva stala tam objeta ob štirih zjutraj, naslonjena na ograjo, ki je obdajala majhen ribnik - ne vem, če ni bil Brbotalnik, kar stala sva tam in si verjela. Ampak tisti hip, ko sem se zalotila, da so kljub vsemu lepemu moje nore misli pa vseeno odtavale nekam drugam, tisti hip sem vedela, da ne bo šlo, da mi je namenjeno, da me najprej še bolj boli, ker mora še bolj boleti, da potem vendar neha."

Ja. Najprej mora še bolj bolet. Da potem neha.

In mene še ni nehal bolet. In noben Darijan ne more tega spremenit.

:D

Fri, 21 Nov 2008 09:10:59 GMT

Surely it's not normal that I'm so insanely looking forward to seeing him tonight.

Also, check this out:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z7TkyzvXLdo

prosto po Sadie...

Thu, 20 Nov 2008 14:33:30 GMT

http://sadie007.blog.siol.net/2008/11/19/nocem-bit-ti/

tkole nekak no, z mal priredbe, pa da ne bom ravn teksta kradla, se jst zdele počutm. in se mam tud čist fletn in mi ni nč hudo in tud jst se bom znašla.

pa tud ključavnco bom namontirala. Če sem jo kupla, jo bom tud namontirala.

Pa tud vitrex sem kupla, znam. Pa tud navodila za razredčenje so gor.

Pa olje tud že znam preverit.

Pa tud police bom namontirala, če bo treba. Pa s T2 se tud znam zmenit.

Vsak dan je ena mala zmaga. Al pa dve.

In sem samostojna in neodvisna in odrasla.
In jst bom v redu.

kaj pa ti?

giddy, oh so giddy

Sun, 16 Nov 2008 14:34:39 GMT

girls. :)))) life is SO. GOOD.

will explain...later. I just...needed to write this. I CANNOT stop grinning :DDD

ps: vera, i need you to hold me back, because i'm falling in... in... in...

but only slightly.

foaming

Sun, 09 Nov 2008 19:08:44 GMT

http://www.rtvslo.si/zabava/modload.php?&c_mod=rnews&op=sections&func=read&c_menu=2&c_id=37729

the.BITCH. i knew it. fucking branka (aka boyfriend-snatcher) ARGH >_>

the trick is to keep breathing

Fri, 03 Oct 2008 18:50:52 GMT

but to try every day all over again?

it's too difficult, too difficult.

sem v kabinetu. pospravljam stvari za novo stanovanje (kdaj bo že to?) in čevlje in take stvari. in ne upam niti pomislit na matejino sobo, kjer je še kup stvari, ki jih ne morem niti pogledat, ker so tam sami spomini, sami spomini.

kako se mi je lahko v enem mesecu obrnilo življenje na glavo?

kako je lahko to naredil, ne da bi trenil z očmi?

kako naj še kdaj poskusim bit v razmerju?

počutim se poškodovano.

meme

Thu, 25 Sep 2008 06:38:02 GMT

21 love questions
you opened it, you have to do it
Or a loved one will be in an accident
Even if you didn't mean to open it,
Still do it! You must answer every question ((TRUTHFUL))

1) Names you go by: Jerneja, Jernejch, Nejch

2) Four things you are wearing right now? trousers, a blouse, underwear, shoes

3) Are you currently in a relationship? No.

4) Have you ever been given a rose? A few times, yes.

5) Have you ever licked your foot? No, why would I? O_O

6) Ever been in love? Yes.

7) Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate? Yes! (i am a hopeless romantic)

8) What's your current problem right now? BDT, the general lack of organisation in my life.

9) Have you ever had your heart broken? Yes. (and still i'm a hopeless romantic...)

10) Your thoughts of long distance relationship? I can imagine a person I'd be willing to try this with. And in general, if it's the right person - it can work out.

12) How many kids do you want to have? Maybe none maybe two - a boy and a girl.

13) Whats your favorite color/s? Yellow, orange, dark red.

14) Do you believe you're truly in love only once? I believe that you meet the right person only once and that's when everything falls in its place, including being truly in love.

15) Have you ever found it hard to tell anyone you like them? Always - and I only did it once anyway.

16) Imagine you're 40 & your spouse just died, would you get re-married? If he was the love of my life - then no.

17) At what age did you start noticing the opposite/both sexes? Oh god, early. In kindergarten :D

18) What song do you want played at your wedding? We've only just begun by The Carpenters (if i want a cheesy wedding :D) Otherwise: I won't walk away by Jewel.

19) Do you like anyone? Yes, but I've put it on hold for a while.

20) Do you think the person you like likes you? He used to - I'm not so sure about it anymore.

21) If someone liked you, do you want them to tell you? Yes, so I'll know whether it's worth waiting for or not. Well - he IS worth waiting for, but I'd like for something to happen someday, so a sign would be good.

my darlings!!!

Sat, 20 Sep 2008 21:06:41 GMT

I HAVE A CAR I HAVE A CAR I HAVE A BRAND NEW CAR A CAR A CAR!!!!!!!!!!!
i bought it today. I get it October 1st :) It's a dark orange Getz :) NEW, completely new :) and mine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

*giddy giddy giddy* :))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Tue, 26 Aug 2008 23:11:09 GMT

The rules:
Step 1: Put your Winamp or equivalent on random.
Step 2: Post the first line from the first 50 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing.
NB - skip if you can't find the lyrics for it.
Step 3: Strike out the songs when someone guesses the titles and artists correctly and list the answer with the username of the person who guessed it at the end of the lyric.
Step 4: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is cheating.

1. Ora che sarai un po' sola
Tra il lavoro e le lenzuola

2. Modern architecture
Already left to decay
Maximo Park - Russian Literature guessed by misatoblue

3. Ich hör schon was du sagst
aber ich kann es nicht verstehen

4. All dressed up with somewhere to go
Got ten new messages on your phone
The Rakes - The World Was a Mess (but His Hair Was Perfect) guessed by misatoblue

5. I remember when
I remember

6. No more champagne
And the fireworks are through

7. Sueño un mundo
Sin tristeza sin temores

8. You took my hand, you showed me how
You promised me you'd be around

9. Gunned down in a fight
It was a bloody pleasure

10. 1-2-3-4 Come on baby say you love me
5-6-7 Times

11. Time waits for no man but you
Time waits for no man but you

12. It's not for me to say, you love me
It's not for me to say, you'll always care
It's not for me to say - Johnny Mathis guessed by sunny0681

13. Don't let your eyes tell the brain
You should feel ashamed

14. Oh they might wear classic reeboks
Or knackered converse
Arctic Monkeys - A certain romance partly guessed by misatoblue

15. Didn't expect any of this, but it's really nice
Didn't want to cause a fuss, but it feels alright

16. She never took the train alone
she hated being on her own

17. Parisian skies,
Shadows beneath your eyes,
Maximo Park - Parisian Skies guessed by misatoblue

18. take a look at my girlfriend
she's the only one i got [ba ba da da] ""

19. I remember like it was yesterday
First kiss and I knew you changed the game

20. Ker prevelik sem poet
za ta mali svet

21. I wake up with blood-shot eyes
Struggled to memorize

22. Ich schreib Dir Zeilen aus Gold
Schreib' aus meiner Seele

23. When the time comes
That you’re no longer there

24. Hey, Mr. Churchill comes over here
To say we're doing splendidly.
Jona Lewie - Stop the cavalry guessed by misatoblue

25. V tišini je živel
in ni vedel, ker ni smel

26. Du willst was sagen, doch es ist vergeblich,
weil keiner dir zuhört und auch keiner versteht dich

27. I never knew,
I never knew that everything,

28. Let it never be said, that romance is dead
Cause there’s so little else occupying my head
Kaiser Chiefs - Ruby guessed by v_veronika

29. Hey!
She’s freaky and she knows it
She’s freaky but I like it

30. Mas que nada
Black eyed peas came in to make it hotter
Black Eyed Peas & Sergio Mendes - Mas Que Nada guessed by sunny0681

31. Look at us now,
Part of it all

32. I'm losing more than i'll ever have,
I'm losing more than i'll ever give,
Maximo Park - Postcard of a painting guessed by misatoblue

33. Simona
You're getting older
James Blunt - 1973 guessed by sunny0681

34. You smacked her right between her blue eyes
You didn't think ahead yeah that was what it said

35. Do you know?

And Do you know?
Do you know?

36. Baby don't go
To the haunted hotel

37. Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry

38. Solarized (the overlap)
A dividing line (the dyed glass)
Maximo Park - Sandblasted and set free guessed by misatoblue

39. You light the skies, up above me
A star, so bright, you blind me, yeah

40. I'll protect you from the hooded claw
Keep the vampires from your door
Frankie Goes to Hollywood - Power of Love guessed by sunny0681

41. Rameses, Colossus. Rameses, Colossus
Rameses, Colossus. Rameses, Colossus
Moloko - Indigo guessed by v_veronika

42. I've got a friend, he's a pure-bred killing machine,
He says he's waited his whole damn life for this,
Nerina Pallot - Everyone's Gone to War guessed by sunny0681

43. She said oh my, Oh no not I
I was just busy watching everyone go by

44. Every time they turn the lights down
Just want to go that extra mile for you
Britney Spears - Gimme more guessed by v_veronika (on one of Ö3 compilations!, not specially DL-ed)

45. One in a million,
Two is a crowd,
Maximo Park - The night I lost my head guessed by misatoblue

46. Gotta get me some
Gotta get me
Moloko - Pure Pleasure Seeker guessed by v_veronika

47. I’m walking through a land
Of peace and harmony

48. Who made up all the rules
We follow them like fools
Jem- They guessed by sunny0681

49. Vergiss alles was ich sagte
denn es bedeutet nichts

50. According to the radio, warmer weather's in the way,
the chances are we won't be getting snow

well have fun, and let me say, in my defense, not all songs were chosen/downloaded by me ;)